a rather long entry just doing some self-reflecting
Listening to Goo Goo Dolls - Name
reflections
Name is probably the saddest songs written by the Goo Goo Dolls. It was THE anthem of sadness when a girl dumps you in ACJC. Its like, it conveys a feeling that though you tried so hard and although you got so far. Everything has come out to nothing. Everything is meaningless, suddenly all which you've worked so hard to make work has collapsed. I love the use of imagery and the double meanings in the lyrics. You figure it out, the double meanings are rather obvious.
the past is never far
did you lose yourself somewhere out there
did you get to be a star?
don't it make sad to know
that life is more than who we are?
you grew up way too fast
and now there's nothing left to believe
and reruns all become our history
a tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
and I won't tell no one your name
Feeling rather melancholic today. Perhaps its just me, or just the fact that I'm really tired. Didn't get enough sleep last night. But who cares, since I've to sleep early tonight to prepare for tomorrow's day shift. I think I could call it "going back to work blues". I enjoy going for the night shift, but I dislike the overall feeling of waking up at 6 in the morning to head to base to prepare the boat for patrol duty.
Well, happy holidays for all the J1s and J2s... If you can consider this a "holiday" in its essence. September holidays are "traditionally" reserved for mugging for the exams. The months of october and november have been "exam time" for the last 12 years of my life. I'm glad that I don't have to live through that now that I'm in NS.
great ACJC classes
Ok, so here's the exhausive list of all the great ACJC classes for the current batch of j3 classes. The rest cannot make it in terms of nice people.
AA2, AD2, SA4, SA5, SB1, SB3, SB5, SB6, SC4, SC5, SC7, SC8, SC9, SC10, SG1, SG3.
Then for the current J2s:
AA2, AD2, AD4, SA5, SB2, SB4, SB8, SC4, SC7, SC8, SC9, SG1, SG2, SG4
They are the LIFE of the school. Minus these people, ACJC will become another NJC, dull, bland, boring, muggerish. The school should sit all the cool classes together during assembly and then just chuck the rest of the classes by the sides. I mean, you walk up LT 1 last year along the SA combi portion and all you get are NERDS NERDS and more NERDS until you reach the last class, which is, thankfully MINE! Cool Class that slacks! Ya, its made worth cos you have to walk past the 3 super stuck up SC classes. It is only made more platable cos you can see MAGGIE seated convieniently on the first SC4 row. Yeah! Her cheerful smile would probably brighten up any sad bastard of an ACJC guy!
Think about it, the top 3 SC classes don't really do much more than occupy their "standard territories" at every lecture. SC1 lower left corner. SC2 lower right corner. SC3 center FRONT ROW. NONSENSE man! They think that just because they have 4 A level subjects, a couple of S Papers, and a bunch of smart classmates, theire oh-so-great and wonderful. Super Stuck up man all these people. Seriously, there is lots of biasedness in the student's council. Check it out, EIGHT councillors from SC1. That's rather skewed a ratio. SG? Only 4.
Sad to say, I have had absolutely no good experiences with dealing with most of the guys and virtually ALL (except THREE of) the girls in these 3 classes. And that's in my TWO entire years in ACJC! With the exception of people like Winston, Zi Ming, Keith Teo (CF people), Nabil (my neighbour), Jonathan from 2SC2 (Barker Guy) as well as Aldred from 2SC3 (Barker guy also) Cheryl & Cherrie from 2SC1(NICE PEOPLE) and Juanhui from 2SC3 (CF girl). The rest, cannot make it. They just want to stick in their pie in the sky cliche. Esp. SC1 girls! They are like "closed". They NEVER seem to make friends with guys outside these 3 classes. Oh well, you can find it out the hard way when you try to hit upon the "2SC2 Girl". Ok, SB1 girls are quite dao also (with the exception of one particular china scholar). The rest are just damn stuck up, even their class guys can't stand them!
I think if we took away all the other classes and just left these classes as part of ACJC. School would be a HAVOC party everyday! We could have a swimming pool party at the sports complex and a overnight camping session on the soccer field. It'll be damn happening man! Thinking about it, these are the classes which come up with the best fun-o-rama games stalls/food stalls. They have the most original ideas, the most unique game stalls and the most hardworking people to make it come to pass.
Aiyah, don't count the "combined efforts of SC1 and AH" for the haunted houses. They curry flavour with the teacher in charge to get the "right to do the stall". Even the dunking machine was supposed to be done by my class, just that SC3 "stole it away" from us via another teacher. The Fun-O-Rama was really the culmulation of hidden AC Class politics. Perhaps that's why the reason why "those who are born biologically male" are supposed to stay overnight the night before the Fun-O-Rama to look after their stalls. Cos in the past the class rivalry had been so bad that some of the other classes had sabotaged and thrased other class' stalls. Rotten AC Spirit these people got. Yeah, I know shit about what was going on, whilst acting like a blur wood cutter for my class food stall - MONSTER EAT MI. Our chicken wings were so popular that the queue basically never stopped from 9a.m till 3p.m when everything was sold out.
Well, it pays to know the people around in school.
for mei
As for MGS girls. Most of my life in Barker was spent knowing full well that most MGS girls look down on Barker guys as just a bunch of "gangsters" and "stupid boys with lots of money to spare". And like ACSI guys were "the best guys a girl could get". Even during the 2nd intake orientation where you could chose your OGs, all the MGS girls practically bunched together. All the ACS Barker guys bunched together and all the ACSI guys bunched together. Leaving "the rest of the school" in the void.
Seriously, my impresson of MGS girls only changed thanks to the MGS girls I met in 2SC8 and 2SC9, not forgetting a few ARTS girls as well. Well, the only class girl from MGS, siew koon, also did play quite a part. The interesting thing was that lots of the these MGS girls I met were somehow from 4C1, 4C2 and 4B3. All the supposedly "lousy classes in MGS". So yeah. And strange to know that amongst the 4A1, A2 MGS girls, a large portion of them are in SC1 2 and 3!
The best thing is that all these "slacker MGS girls" still do better than us in Maths. And we are an F MATHS CLASS! NONSENSE man!
Well, as for Dorcas Nga. She's your good friend. But as far as I'm concerned, I get REALLY WEIRD STARES from her. Oh I notice. I have eyes at the back of my head.... NO LAR! OF COURSE NOT! But when my buddies start telling me things like:
"Eh brother, I think that girl over there is staring at you man, she's been looking at you intently for quite some time already"
"Oei! Dont' blur leh! That girl over there looking at you funny man"
"Eh Eh Eh, have you noticed that girl over that side there... she's giving us weird looks man"
"Sheeeeeeeeeet! Whose that girl over there looking at us... "
And its ALWAYS her! What's going on.. I don't know... NONSENSE MAN!
You get the idea. I'm like SO invisible in JC, no one even notices me, so when a girl stares... Its just damn weird. Then there's the Rugby Finals at the Police Academy. I walked past the Student Councils' Platform and before I know it, I see giving me WEIRD STARES from the sides! NONSENSE MAN! Might be a coincidence, but where got so many times one?
for joline
I think your class monitor is really one of the nicest guys I've met in the school. He's not just friendly, he's like, SO incredibly friendly and all. He's a jolly nice fella to talk and joke with. Once, I skipped class just so I could drink T with him in the new canteen and just to chit chat stuff when he was having a free period. He's a brilliant guy who speaks well and can bring across his point in complex issues better than most of the GP pros that I know of.
Best thing is that, he's really one of those Malay/Muslims that You can talk to about Christianity. Its weird. We talk about relgion almost like 1/3 the time. And he's always patiently explaining to me all the "screwed up stuff the media prints" about jihad, jahad, and what's the difference between shite muslims and sunni muslims. Then he talks about the Israeli-Arab conflict, terrorism, the issue of the land of Palestine. Basically very deep stuff that most people would gladly ignore. And its like, he is willing to accept various perspectives and see things with various view points without getting offended. So unlike almost all the malay/muslim guys I've met in the Police Academy - who are INCREDIBLY sensitive when the name Jesus is mentioned in their presence.
Ya. So to me, Jesus is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. Then to him, he tells me that "Isa was just a prophet to us". And ya, things like Jewish Orthodoxy, Christian Crusaders vs Muslim Heathen or the various infighting that takes place in the name of Islam to cleanse the land of "infidels". The only other Malay/Muslim guy that I know of in ACJC who can speak on such sensitive issues would be Fariz - the guy in the EX-CO of the 26th Student's Council. He's another guy who rocks the set man. He knows full well that I am just an "infidel" from his relgious perspectives at certain points and yet we can still study mathematics together in the old canteen. Try doing that in Police Academy and before you know it, you'll be in detention under ISA. Immature people are easy to spot - they are extremely uncomfortable with mixing with people of different races and religions.
Oh you might wonder. Why is it every monday, all the Muslim students are seated at the back of LT1 and leave immediately the moment Chapel starts? Because there is a law that you are not allowed to share your religion with Muslims. I think this applies mostly to Christians, who are commanded by the Great Commission to preach to all nations, every creature and to the ends of the earth. When I was helping out in Christian Fellowship, I recieved info that told me that the MOE once wanted and IMMEDIATE report on the activities of the Christian Fellowships going on in ACJC and GMSS, particularly ACJC. Apparently, there were some complaints of sorts that the Chapel in school/Christian Activities going on were contrary of the law. So we can see how serious the gahmen is when it comes to any relgious issues. So that's why I don't really thing that the MOE only has one agenda to educate us. More of, they might have a hidden agenda to bring all students in national schools with a train of thought to keep religion, particularly the "evangelical christianity" out of schools.
Frightening it might be, that a secular state like ours, which recognises many religions (that are state approved/sanctioned) actually keeps VERY close tabs with what is going on with religion in our country. Almost like a hidden calculated attempt to regulate it. So much for a "multi-religious" society. After all, if you think about it, the Jehovah's Witnesses are banned because they do not believe in holding arms, hence not serving NS in army. Sounds more like a forceful attempt to control the nation and its populace when a particular religions views are differing from the "official stand". Almost communist sounding in a suposedly democratic country.
I think the best possible way for various people to tread over sensitive ground and talk about it openly and honestly without malice is to have EXTREMELY open minded and VERY BRILLIANT people with High EQ of various Religions and Races to have an open dialogue roundtable kind of thing. You can't take immature people and talk to them about serious issues. Sad to say that out of most of the people I've met in NS are bloody immature, and they're like 5 or 6 years older than me! Not that I want to brag, but its really obvious sometimes.
Its good that I meet such people. So I can examine my faith more accurately and ask Aunty Ros on areas that I am unsure of. Whatever it is, I know that I know that I know that my bible is correct and is true. It is the Word of God!
Whatever it is. Life in ACJC has been very enriching. Perhaps not academically, for that I thank my tuition teachers, but thinking wise and broadening my exposure to global issues and various perspectives, it has done very well indeed.
Listening to Goo Goo Dolls - Name
reflections
Name is probably the saddest songs written by the Goo Goo Dolls. It was THE anthem of sadness when a girl dumps you in ACJC. Its like, it conveys a feeling that though you tried so hard and although you got so far. Everything has come out to nothing. Everything is meaningless, suddenly all which you've worked so hard to make work has collapsed. I love the use of imagery and the double meanings in the lyrics. You figure it out, the double meanings are rather obvious.
the past is never far
did you lose yourself somewhere out there
did you get to be a star?
don't it make sad to know
that life is more than who we are?
you grew up way too fast
and now there's nothing left to believe
and reruns all become our history
a tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
and I won't tell no one your name
Feeling rather melancholic today. Perhaps its just me, or just the fact that I'm really tired. Didn't get enough sleep last night. But who cares, since I've to sleep early tonight to prepare for tomorrow's day shift. I think I could call it "going back to work blues". I enjoy going for the night shift, but I dislike the overall feeling of waking up at 6 in the morning to head to base to prepare the boat for patrol duty.
Well, happy holidays for all the J1s and J2s... If you can consider this a "holiday" in its essence. September holidays are "traditionally" reserved for mugging for the exams. The months of october and november have been "exam time" for the last 12 years of my life. I'm glad that I don't have to live through that now that I'm in NS.
great ACJC classes
Ok, so here's the exhausive list of all the great ACJC classes for the current batch of j3 classes. The rest cannot make it in terms of nice people.
AA2, AD2, SA4, SA5, SB1, SB3, SB5, SB6, SC4, SC5, SC7, SC8, SC9, SC10, SG1, SG3.
Then for the current J2s:
AA2, AD2, AD4, SA5, SB2, SB4, SB8, SC4, SC7, SC8, SC9, SG1, SG2, SG4
They are the LIFE of the school. Minus these people, ACJC will become another NJC, dull, bland, boring, muggerish. The school should sit all the cool classes together during assembly and then just chuck the rest of the classes by the sides. I mean, you walk up LT 1 last year along the SA combi portion and all you get are NERDS NERDS and more NERDS until you reach the last class, which is, thankfully MINE! Cool Class that slacks! Ya, its made worth cos you have to walk past the 3 super stuck up SC classes. It is only made more platable cos you can see MAGGIE seated convieniently on the first SC4 row. Yeah! Her cheerful smile would probably brighten up any sad bastard of an ACJC guy!
Think about it, the top 3 SC classes don't really do much more than occupy their "standard territories" at every lecture. SC1 lower left corner. SC2 lower right corner. SC3 center FRONT ROW. NONSENSE man! They think that just because they have 4 A level subjects, a couple of S Papers, and a bunch of smart classmates, theire oh-so-great and wonderful. Super Stuck up man all these people. Seriously, there is lots of biasedness in the student's council. Check it out, EIGHT councillors from SC1. That's rather skewed a ratio. SG? Only 4.
Sad to say, I have had absolutely no good experiences with dealing with most of the guys and virtually ALL (except THREE of) the girls in these 3 classes. And that's in my TWO entire years in ACJC! With the exception of people like Winston, Zi Ming, Keith Teo (CF people), Nabil (my neighbour), Jonathan from 2SC2 (Barker Guy) as well as Aldred from 2SC3 (Barker guy also) Cheryl & Cherrie from 2SC1(NICE PEOPLE) and Juanhui from 2SC3 (CF girl). The rest, cannot make it. They just want to stick in their pie in the sky cliche. Esp. SC1 girls! They are like "closed". They NEVER seem to make friends with guys outside these 3 classes. Oh well, you can find it out the hard way when you try to hit upon the "2SC2 Girl". Ok, SB1 girls are quite dao also (with the exception of one particular china scholar). The rest are just damn stuck up, even their class guys can't stand them!
I think if we took away all the other classes and just left these classes as part of ACJC. School would be a HAVOC party everyday! We could have a swimming pool party at the sports complex and a overnight camping session on the soccer field. It'll be damn happening man! Thinking about it, these are the classes which come up with the best fun-o-rama games stalls/food stalls. They have the most original ideas, the most unique game stalls and the most hardworking people to make it come to pass.
Aiyah, don't count the "combined efforts of SC1 and AH" for the haunted houses. They curry flavour with the teacher in charge to get the "right to do the stall". Even the dunking machine was supposed to be done by my class, just that SC3 "stole it away" from us via another teacher. The Fun-O-Rama was really the culmulation of hidden AC Class politics. Perhaps that's why the reason why "those who are born biologically male" are supposed to stay overnight the night before the Fun-O-Rama to look after their stalls. Cos in the past the class rivalry had been so bad that some of the other classes had sabotaged and thrased other class' stalls. Rotten AC Spirit these people got. Yeah, I know shit about what was going on, whilst acting like a blur wood cutter for my class food stall - MONSTER EAT MI. Our chicken wings were so popular that the queue basically never stopped from 9a.m till 3p.m when everything was sold out.
Well, it pays to know the people around in school.
for mei
As for MGS girls. Most of my life in Barker was spent knowing full well that most MGS girls look down on Barker guys as just a bunch of "gangsters" and "stupid boys with lots of money to spare". And like ACSI guys were "the best guys a girl could get". Even during the 2nd intake orientation where you could chose your OGs, all the MGS girls practically bunched together. All the ACS Barker guys bunched together and all the ACSI guys bunched together. Leaving "the rest of the school" in the void.
Seriously, my impresson of MGS girls only changed thanks to the MGS girls I met in 2SC8 and 2SC9, not forgetting a few ARTS girls as well. Well, the only class girl from MGS, siew koon, also did play quite a part. The interesting thing was that lots of the these MGS girls I met were somehow from 4C1, 4C2 and 4B3. All the supposedly "lousy classes in MGS". So yeah. And strange to know that amongst the 4A1, A2 MGS girls, a large portion of them are in SC1 2 and 3!
The best thing is that all these "slacker MGS girls" still do better than us in Maths. And we are an F MATHS CLASS! NONSENSE man!
Well, as for Dorcas Nga. She's your good friend. But as far as I'm concerned, I get REALLY WEIRD STARES from her. Oh I notice. I have eyes at the back of my head.... NO LAR! OF COURSE NOT! But when my buddies start telling me things like:
"Eh brother, I think that girl over there is staring at you man, she's been looking at you intently for quite some time already"
"Oei! Dont' blur leh! That girl over there looking at you funny man"
"Eh Eh Eh, have you noticed that girl over that side there... she's giving us weird looks man"
"Sheeeeeeeeeet! Whose that girl over there looking at us... "
And its ALWAYS her! What's going on.. I don't know... NONSENSE MAN!
You get the idea. I'm like SO invisible in JC, no one even notices me, so when a girl stares... Its just damn weird. Then there's the Rugby Finals at the Police Academy. I walked past the Student Councils' Platform and before I know it, I see giving me WEIRD STARES from the sides! NONSENSE MAN! Might be a coincidence, but where got so many times one?
for joline
I think your class monitor is really one of the nicest guys I've met in the school. He's not just friendly, he's like, SO incredibly friendly and all. He's a jolly nice fella to talk and joke with. Once, I skipped class just so I could drink T with him in the new canteen and just to chit chat stuff when he was having a free period. He's a brilliant guy who speaks well and can bring across his point in complex issues better than most of the GP pros that I know of.
Best thing is that, he's really one of those Malay/Muslims that You can talk to about Christianity. Its weird. We talk about relgion almost like 1/3 the time. And he's always patiently explaining to me all the "screwed up stuff the media prints" about jihad, jahad, and what's the difference between shite muslims and sunni muslims. Then he talks about the Israeli-Arab conflict, terrorism, the issue of the land of Palestine. Basically very deep stuff that most people would gladly ignore. And its like, he is willing to accept various perspectives and see things with various view points without getting offended. So unlike almost all the malay/muslim guys I've met in the Police Academy - who are INCREDIBLY sensitive when the name Jesus is mentioned in their presence.
Ya. So to me, Jesus is the King of Kings and Lord of Lords. Then to him, he tells me that "Isa was just a prophet to us". And ya, things like Jewish Orthodoxy, Christian Crusaders vs Muslim Heathen or the various infighting that takes place in the name of Islam to cleanse the land of "infidels". The only other Malay/Muslim guy that I know of in ACJC who can speak on such sensitive issues would be Fariz - the guy in the EX-CO of the 26th Student's Council. He's another guy who rocks the set man. He knows full well that I am just an "infidel" from his relgious perspectives at certain points and yet we can still study mathematics together in the old canteen. Try doing that in Police Academy and before you know it, you'll be in detention under ISA. Immature people are easy to spot - they are extremely uncomfortable with mixing with people of different races and religions.
Oh you might wonder. Why is it every monday, all the Muslim students are seated at the back of LT1 and leave immediately the moment Chapel starts? Because there is a law that you are not allowed to share your religion with Muslims. I think this applies mostly to Christians, who are commanded by the Great Commission to preach to all nations, every creature and to the ends of the earth. When I was helping out in Christian Fellowship, I recieved info that told me that the MOE once wanted and IMMEDIATE report on the activities of the Christian Fellowships going on in ACJC and GMSS, particularly ACJC. Apparently, there were some complaints of sorts that the Chapel in school/Christian Activities going on were contrary of the law. So we can see how serious the gahmen is when it comes to any relgious issues. So that's why I don't really thing that the MOE only has one agenda to educate us. More of, they might have a hidden agenda to bring all students in national schools with a train of thought to keep religion, particularly the "evangelical christianity" out of schools.
Frightening it might be, that a secular state like ours, which recognises many religions (that are state approved/sanctioned) actually keeps VERY close tabs with what is going on with religion in our country. Almost like a hidden calculated attempt to regulate it. So much for a "multi-religious" society. After all, if you think about it, the Jehovah's Witnesses are banned because they do not believe in holding arms, hence not serving NS in army. Sounds more like a forceful attempt to control the nation and its populace when a particular religions views are differing from the "official stand". Almost communist sounding in a suposedly democratic country.
I think the best possible way for various people to tread over sensitive ground and talk about it openly and honestly without malice is to have EXTREMELY open minded and VERY BRILLIANT people with High EQ of various Religions and Races to have an open dialogue roundtable kind of thing. You can't take immature people and talk to them about serious issues. Sad to say that out of most of the people I've met in NS are bloody immature, and they're like 5 or 6 years older than me! Not that I want to brag, but its really obvious sometimes.
Its good that I meet such people. So I can examine my faith more accurately and ask Aunty Ros on areas that I am unsure of. Whatever it is, I know that I know that I know that my bible is correct and is true. It is the Word of God!
Whatever it is. Life in ACJC has been very enriching. Perhaps not academically, for that I thank my tuition teachers, but thinking wise and broadening my exposure to global issues and various perspectives, it has done very well indeed.
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